The World of a Karaoke Junkie

I know you all think i'm dead or something, but I'm still here! LOL  I miss you all.  I have since been laid off again, that company i was working for went under.  So I started my own cleaning business.  It's going slow, but I do have regular customers already.  I really like doing this, and I'm good at it.

 

BF and I are still together, I've moved in with him, but no ring yet!  The kids are growing like weeds!  DD is a senior this year, and I feel old! DS is in 8th grade and they are now both taller than me! LOL  I only have puter access at BF's office so I will post when I can.

 

Love and Hugs to All!

Hello All.  I'm here, just really busy since I started full time.  My body is not used to 40 hours a week!  

 

There's been a big change at the cantina.  Some people have been compalining about the entertainment on karaoke nights, BF had one DJ in there that was no good at all, and that started a war.  An ex DJ of BF's was in there one night partying and some regulars told the owner that they wanted her back!  The owner acutally met with her and discussed the possiblity of her taking over BF's job there.  Now BF has been there doing karaoke and regular djing for over ten years.  Most of the regulars love him, but the owner seems to be listening to the big spenders at the bar!  So we found out Saturday night that this rival is going to get Saturday nights at the cantina, and naturally BF is pissed! The owner himself didn't even tell bf, he had one of his employees do it!  BF hopes to talk to the owner today, and find out why this is happening.  I'll keep you all posted.

 

BTW, I've not mentioned that since last April, I've lost 37 pounds!  I feel much better about my self, and I look good! LOL  Things between BF and I are getting better all the time, we are still going slow.  More updates as they happen!

 

Love and Hugs to all!

So, BF and I have done hours of talking, and we are going to try again.  It will be different this time.  I will not be living with him right away, like I said, got to get my act together financially.  Luckily, I start full time here next week!  Yay.  That will be a big strain off the ol' bank account! 

 

He has been much sweeter and more thoughtful this time around.  Also more affectionate.  People are saying that the ring should be coming anytime now; but I'm not putting pressure on him.  He knows, according to a mutual friend, that I deserve it this time, just don't know when /if I'll get it.  I have been told that I should tell him I won't live with him unless I get it.

 

98% of people are thrilled for me, of course there are a few who say I'm stupid to take him back.  All I know is he makes me happy and we belong together.

 

Love and Hugs to All!

Happy New Year!!!  I must say this was a good idea in one sense, taking that trip with BF.  I'm using that term loosley, not officially back together yet.  I have a lot of thinking to do.  I let it all out, and he did too.  He apologized for hurting me, and explained why he did it. I won't go into detail, but he really didn't know any other way to deal with all that was happening to him.

 

He wants me back, and I want him back but will have to be careful if I do this.  I'll let you know whats happening!

 

Hugs to All!

Still here!  Just a little busy at work and trying to get shopping done between all the storms!  Stupid winter!  BF and I are still talking, but really need to get away from everyone around here, the only time I see him is when he's working, so there's no privacy to talk. We should be able to get some time alone over New Years.  I'm going to lay it all out, let him know exactly what I went through.  He needs to know how much he hurt me for me to start healing, and I need to do that soon!  I hear that forgiving him might help, but not sure when that will happen.  I'll let you all know, of course!  Gotta run, the phone is ringing!

 

Hugs to All!

I'm still alive.  Lots has happened these past two months.  I'm down to one part time job, the dealership was sold, and the new owners cleaned house.  I was one of the first to go.  But this morning job is supposed to go full time next month!  So that's one relief!

 

I'm renting a room from a friend of mine from the cantina.  It's working out really well for me, three minutes from work, and five minutes from the cantina!

 

BF and I have been talking a lot.  I still go to the cantina; I wasn't going to let being dumped keep me away from there!  So we saw each other just about every week, and now he is realizing he may have made a mistake.  He hasn't said this to me directly, but I've heard it from mutual friends.  Now the question is do I take him back?  Not sure.  We are still talking.  He wants me to go with him to his New Year's eve gig.  This may be the best chance for us to really sit down and talk without anyone around.

 

I'll keep you all posted, and it is good to be back!

 

Hugs to All!

I haven't been too honest with you guys lately, but here's what's up.  BF and I are going to lose the house to forclosure.  We couldn't sell it, and we are out of time.  The next thing is that last night he said he wants to start a new chapter in his life by himself.  It's over.  I'm so heartbroken.  I won't go into specifics, but basically, he hasn't been happy.   I've started looking for a place, but I don't know how I'll swing this.  I cannot show my face in the cantina, either, at least not for now.  You guys have been great friends, but I don't know if Ill be back to update my space again....  I love you all.

Well, now that I'm over my 2nd case of tonsilitis, I'm still plugging away.  My second job, working as a cashier at a local car dealer, is anything but boring!!  You meet some characters in this job!!  Most are nice, but you get the occasional rude person, and you take it.  I usually get my boss or the service manager involved, and that works.  One woman was at my window and asked her husband if he was the one that smelled!  OMG!  It was all I could do not to laugh!!!  The poor guy!

 

The kids are doing well, DS is in Pop Warner football this year and his team is undefeated so far!  He plays defense, and he says he likes it, but likes basketball better.  DD is working and doing drama club again this year, and loves it.  I just never see them anymore!  I never see BF anymore either, and that's rough.

 

Other than that, I'm fine.  I just eat, work and sleep.  Some day this will all be worth it....

 

Luv and Hugs to all!!

I think it's Wednesday, not sure, though.  Having one day off a week has thrown me off.  Hopefully I'll be used to this soon!

 

Well, we had some extra caricular activity going on in the parking lot of my morning job last week and this past monday.  The receptionist (age 17) from the office downstairs was um......"exercising" in the back seat of her boyfriend's car during her lunch break!  In the parking lot!!!  In broad day light!!!!  Needless to say, she was fired on Monday.  Unbelievable!!

 

Not much to talk about on the home front, I'm never there!    Hopefully BF and I can get away for the day Sunday, we need some more "us" time.

 

Hope you are all well.

 

Love and Hugs to All!

Well, so far I am keeping up the 53 hour a week schedule.  I'm tired, but I'm not looking for quarters in the couch!!!!  I don't see BF very much, but it's making me appreciate the one day we have together.

 

Hope you are all well, Love and Hugs to all!